Aghh..Emotions. They are hilarious. I say hilarious for those of you who don't know me when I actually hate something. I didn't know this about myself and figured it out from a friend awhile back.
But really I am hoping most women feel. Maybe not so frequently or fiercely as me but at least feel the world and not just observe it.
I have matured slowly in the area of emotions.
~ blog interrupted as husband comes in carrying flowers, a paper for coupon cutting and Starbucks~
Before this I was going to say. Does anyone else in any given hour want to say. I am worthless, the worst mom ever- wife ever- and I never want to blog again. Or, baby is screaming kids wont go to bed you have been dreaming of 7:30.2 and they are not following your agenda and within five min. you hate your life, you are too poor, dumb and incapable of leading a godly life. So that is me.
When left to my "feelings" I either love the Lord, want to change the world, feel blessed- redeemed, rescued. Or..I feel- forgotten, lonely, worthless and broken. This all happens on any given Tuesday and multiple times between breakfast and lunch.
So in my SLOW maturing this is what I stand on.
Genesis 8:21 (New International Version)
21 The LORD smelled the pleasing aroma and said in his heart: "Never again will I curse the ground because of man, even though [a] every inclination of his heart is evil from childhood. And never again will I destroy all living creatures, as I have done.
I am not abnormal, I am man..I am woman.
1 Corinthians 1:
4 for the grace of God which was given you in Christ Jesus,
5that in everything you were enriched in Him, in all speech and all knowledge,
6even as the testimony concerning Christ was confirmed in you,
7so that you are not lacking in any gift, awaiting eagerly the revelation of our Lord Jesus Christ,
8who will also confirm you to the end, blameless in the day of our Lord Jesus Christ.
This grace. this call. Did not come from my own emotions, lack of or hell bent flesh. This is from He. This is for Him. He will not give up. So I can learn to break and die and come.
So now, I "feel" in love. Ready to take on the week, ready to take on couch time with the hubby. I "feel" like a super loved wife, undeserving of all the blessings I have- that all came from a cup of coffee and some flowers.
What will the holy spirit, coupled with the inherit word of God, along with time on my face before the King, plus Resurrection power bring about...(Any and all things good or lovely, that's what. That is real.)
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7 years ago
sometimes i like to think that God allows us to have those low moments because he LOVES it when we choose to be delighted in Him again. We need to be reminded over and over again that we ARE or WERE nothing before we came to Him. That feeling of joy I get after feeling down on myself or depressed - is something that ONLY HE can allow me to experience.
ReplyDeleteSo glad you posted this I felt like I was reading what was in my head. So good to know I am not the only one thinking EXACTLY what you wrote in the 1st paragraph. Do you ever feel like you are the only one mostly because you are usually the only one talking about your struggles while everyone around you doesnt speak of their emotions like they dont deal with that EVER. Thank you for the verses. I admire your ability to jump back into Him even when your emotions are taking over :) Love, Amanda
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